George Bernard Shaw

My life belongs to the whole community and as long as I live, it is a privilege to do for it whatsoever I can. I want to be thoroughly used up when I die, for the harder I work, the more I live. I rejoice in life for its own sake. Life is no 'brief candle' to me. It is a sort of splendid torch which I have got hold of for the moment; and I want to make it burn as brightly as possible before handing it on to future generations."

Day 13

Good yoga weekend. Friday night vinyasa, Saturday 50 minute self-practice vinyasa, and Sunday 90 minute vinyasa class. Still having some shoulder pain. I think my down dog is really improving though. I'm finally starting to really stretch out my hamstrings, and hopefully I can finally start to strengthen my back more.

Sometimes I feel like I'm a pretty advanced student, and other times I feel like I have so far to go I shouldn't even be considering teach training. When will I be ready? When will I know I'm ready? Will I ever be ready?

I'm spending super bowl sunday in watching he's just not that into you. Is that sad?

I'm also considering doing a 30 day bikram challenge after this 30 day challenge.

Day 9

It's been a pretty tough week. Monday I was planning on going to an afternoon class, but I was feeling so exhausted. I did a short 30 minute self practice. Tuesday I had class all day and did self practice again for about 40 minutes. Today my morning class got canceled due to weather so I got to go to YTTP for a morning class. I love morning classes, but it's so hard to find the energy to get there. The past few days, I feel like I've had to pry myself out of bed. I got an extra hour this morning, so I hope the rest of the week runs smoothly. I'm planning a 6pm class tomorrow night. I can hopefully get out of work in time to make it there.

I was watching I Used to be Fat on MTV tonight, and it actually really spoke to me. The girl wasn't losing weight because she was cheating with her diet. Sometimes I just DON'T feel like writing down what I'm eating, and I'm too afraid to step on the scale. If i don't see it, it doesn't matter. I just can't handle being this weight anymore. I know my body is slightly improving, but I need the number on the scale to go down. I KNOW this is not a healthy weight. I was my body to feel light and healthy, not weighed down by an extra 20 pounds I don't need. I feel like I'm eating so healthy. I eat almost completely vegan, with the exception of the occasional omelet at brunch. I don't know how much more I can cut out. I've got to keep tracking my calories and see what I can cut out. I don't want to be one of those overweight vegetarians. I don't want people to be surprised I ran a marathon, or that I'm doing a 30 day yoga challenge.

Here's to a healthy Thursday.